^this
Funny thing is if I watched it now it’d never be as good as when I was a kid. It’d compete and be defeated by its own shadow.
Dearest Cecilia,
the story can resume
The one I had been planning on that evening walk. I can become again the man who once crossed the Surrey park at dusk, in my best suit, swaggering on the promise of life.
Although only potentially relevant to some disastrous future, this still resonates, somehow. It’s also pretentious enough for my pussybow blouse, and I do love co-ordinating.
When I realised it didn’t matter, none of it, not a single thing, that really took the edge off of trying to be anything other than happy.